I am beyond looking forward to the end of this year. This was one tough year full of medical and personal challenges. To say I went through a lot this year would be quite an accurate statement. I'm looking forward to 2012 and just praying that it brings good news and amazing things.
If I had to sum up the entire year for me, then I would choose: survivor. Where am I now compared to one year ago is absolutely astonishing. Just last year, I was still recovering from a partial mastectomy, anaphylaxis from my first chemo, and just started losing my hair. Actually, I think New Year's 2010 was when I was officially a baldy after all of my tufts of hair finally bid adieu. I started off this year bald, so sick, and just wondering how much more could my body take.
|Remember this girl?|
I've learned, albeit the hard way, that your body can take quite a lot. This year I went four chemotherapies, seven weeks of radiation and TWO additional surgeries. One of those surgeries landed me in the hospital for two not-fun-filled days. Right now, I'm sitting here in my living room (with a nice full head of hair!) and battling a cough that would have landed me in the hospital one year ago. My returning white blood cells are hard at work. The point, and I haz one, is that I have recovered. My body has been through absolute hell, and right now, I'm okay.
2011 has taught me such a valuable life lesson, and this is going to sound uber corny. It's inspired me to be the absolute best person I can be - to not give up and try again. I've been focused on my outer appearance for quite some time, but I have plans for the inner Me. Oh do I have plans. Dreams. Aspirations. Plans to both kick ass and take names. You can't see it right now but I'm plotting.
I hope 2012 is wonderful, and I'm going to do everything in my power to make it so. I want to put this year (and the end of 2010) behind me, and move on and just live a happy and hopefully healthy life.